Growing Process

Sunday, January 17th, 2021

Last night for some reason I choose to sleep on the couch. Maybe its because couch sleeps hit different, or maybe because it was comforting to sleep on the couch, weird I know but there is something about getting comfortable in one spot and not having to move, that is restful in itself, I mean I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in and I got nearly 8 hours of rest! When I woke up this morning the first thing I did was sit down and edit the post I started writing last night before I fell asleep, than I went and started taking care of my skin care routine.

When all of that was over I got ready to go to work, funny how I wasn't getting ready to go to the gym and spend 3 hours there. See while I do work at the gym, there's a rule where we are only aloud to workout while on duty - when no one is present. So that got little frustrating today because someone showed up right at noon when we opened - so while they were there I started working on something I needed to get done, for an internship application that is due on Friday. When she was done I was going to start working out but I needed to go to the bathroom and fill my water bottle. By the time I got back two boys showed up to workout together, which was annoying because they FaceTimed their other friend to see if he was coming and he said he would come "later" if he had time.

At that point I felt discouraged and I felt like today was going to be the first day in a month that I didn't get to workout. That wasn't the care thankfully however! after the boys overstayed their "welcome" since there gym reservation to use the weight room was only for an hour, and they were there for two I didn't think I'd have time to workout. Luckily I did! See the center closed at 5 tonight, if no one has a late reservations I'm aloud to leave at 4:45 which I usually bank on. But, today - today I started my workout at 315, I finished part of it at 4, went and used the bathroom and than came back to do a few more things. I finished at 445 had enough time to fill my water bottle up and leave! I'm glad I got 1.5 hours of lifting done.

What stinks about working where I work, is that there are three different workout spaces the weight rooms are divided up so not every room has everything. To do a full solid lift I usually need to book all three rooms back to back in order to get a full circuit done. But today I finished the workout I started yesterday and I did all the exercises I could for todays workout that involved the equipment that the room I was in provided. After work, I ran to Walmart because I needed baking powder for something I was making for dinner.

Tonight I made "healthy" pizza. I took oats, egg whites, baking powder, Italian seasoning, and grated cheese and blended it up. Put it in the over to bake the dough, topped it with sauce and cheese and let it melt. I was really hungry after making it - I had been fasting for nearly 22 hours, I was trying to make up for the pizza I had the night before that in my mind had me go "off plan" and I felt guilty. Anyway I had this pizza and it was good ... minus the fact that I made the crust too thick so it was dry in places, other than that it was super filling I only ate around half of the full thing, and the extras I saved for another time - this healthy option for the full pizza is so high in protein and positive macros, it was only 750 calories for the whole thing instead of for two slices in comparison. But than again I ate alittle less than half so it really waist that bad calories wise, plus I did workout!

Let me put you on, while I was cooking and eating dinner I started watching a show called "Letterkenny" it is so freaken funny I recommend people watch it, it has hockey language in it and its so wholesome ... wholesomely entertaining! Than after that I packed my bag so I can go straight to the library in the morning after my 8 am covid test. That way I can get a good chunk of reading done, outside of my apartment since ive been so distracted and unmotivated lately! I'll get up early get what I need done, go to work from 1-3, finish the day with a workout after its done, come home do some more reading and get to bed early since I have class at 9 am on Tuesday and I want to get there early so I can get a good seat for the semester and really set myself up for success!

I've got a good feeling about this semester, with me prioritizing my health and exercise I'll always be mentally clear and sharp ready to go, plus I'll have extra energy ... because of my pre workout lol jk, but I do need to prioritize sleep that took a hit this past week I went from getting 8-9 hours of sleep to only getting 6.5-7.5 hours which isn't enough for me because I am exercising so hard! Its a learning process to see what works, and what is important for me. I am also learning to get a work life balance where I dont spread myself too thin, I dont say yes to helping everyone, and I dont put my self priority on the back burner. I'm trying but I won't sacrifice that in which is important to me!

I've learned and I've grown over this holiday winter break, and I feel like I am a stronger more confident woman than I was 30 days ago, I feel like I recognize myself in the mirror now and I like the reflection staring back at me. What is something you hope to change and improve on over the next 30 days? Are you the type of person to acknowledge your own growth or do you wait for others to see the difference in you? Do you think change can occur in as "little" as 30 days? Are you hesitant and scared of change or do you embrace it with open arms?