No One is Perfect

Monday, January 11th, 2021

You know what I learned today? I learned not to be so hard on myself. I learned that it is okay to be perfectly imperfect. Look none of us are perfect, we my like to think we are perfectionists but the honest truth is none of us are without flaws and without lessons to be learned. For instance, me - I like to think I've got this health thing down to a routined science by now - but that really isn't the case, in reality I am always learning an always growing. I need to stop being so hard on myself when I dont get to the gym at a certain time or I have to cut a workout short because I have class or a doctors appointment.

What should be good enough for me is the fact that I even went to the gym, the fact that I prioritized going and made it apart of my day. Ya, I may not have gotten a banging lift in - but I did do some stretching, some core work, and some rehab on my shoulders and knees and that was more than I would have done if I choose to skip the gym and not go. What I've been mentally working on is the fact that I push myself way too hard. I haven't taken a rest day since Christmas and I have been working out for nearly a month now with only one rest day. I tend not to cut myself any slack. But what I really should be doing is recognizing that I did something to put myself out there, I did something to focus on myself and better myself. It was a small step forward, but it was a step none the less. Even if I went for a walk you know what - that would be better than nothing! See life is hard, and just going and doing something is half the battle. Saying you're going to do it and then following through starting it and than completing it - that is something to be proud of.

Today was my first day of classes for my 2nd semester of law school. I woke up later than normal because my body was telling me it needed the extra sleep, I listened to it and I slept in. But, I still had enough time to go to the gym before class - because lets be honest who wants to go to the gym later in the afternoon / night when it is crowded and busy - not me, plus I like seeing the "regulars" I work out with every day they are my vibe. I got to the gym and I knew I needed to "take it easy" a light workout so that today could be an "Active rest day". I felt proud that I stayed true to it and still got moving but I wasn't pushing my body too hard.

It is hard to workout, go to class, get reading done for the next day, cook, clean - do it all because there aren't enough hours in the day - but you know what, we make time for what is important to us. For me I have 5 key priorities, 1) the gym 2) blogging 3) praying, 4) hydration, 5) sleep. Those are things I won't sacrifice on. Through out the day I am able to plan around those things. I am still able to cook, I am able to go to class and to get my work done - but having these key priorities are the things I see as "responsibilities" I have to myself. See I can only control things in my life - so I control those things because I know they impact my happiness. I want to be happy so I am going to do everything in my power to be happy. So unfortunately that may mean I go to bed little later than I might have wanted but I always build in a buffer hour in my Schedule in case things go over, so that I can still get them done while not compromising my 8 hours of sleep I gift myself at night.

The best thing I have ever done for myself is fix my sleep schedule. Being able to figure out away to give my body the rest it needs to recharge has been so helpful and it has translated into other aspects of my life. See 2021 is all about my happiness. I am using this year as a year to make myself happier, make me stronger, and help me shine that much more brighter. I dont want to ever give anyone the power again to dim in light, or to change me. I am secure with who I am, I am forever changing and the nice thing about that is the old me that you think you still know is gone. The woman I was six months ago doesnt exist anymore, I am a new woman and I am busy changing and bettering myself every damn day!

Its so important to drop the dead weight, you are only holding yourself back. Hold the damn door open for people to leave. Ya, people leave and it sucks but im at the point in my life that I dont want anyone in my life that doesnt want to be here. I'm not forcing them to stay or talk to me - leave thats fine it is making room for those who want to stay, and for those who want to enter. I only have room in my life for those who have room for me. I'm not going to apologize for having a "big personality" for being passionate, driven, hardworking. I'll never apologize for having goals and aspirations and doing everything in my power to get to where I need to go. Trust me, I love obstacles and road blocks they teach the best lessons in life - but I will never let one of them stop me or deter me just because it is harder to work through or a longer process. They always said good things come to those who wait ... well good things come to those who are patient, put in the time, and effort. They will be rewarded for their sacrifices their blood sweat and tears.

You aren't perfect we make mistakes but it is about learning form them, sometimes you need to learn that lesson twice before you truly learn it and dont have to repeat it - but trust me everything you learn is valuable. But you aren't perfect, you cant control things that happen, they are out of your control sometimes. It is how you roll with the punches that shows you the person you are when you come out on top. Trust me - I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't go through some trails along the way and get broken an bruised - truly I wouldn't look at life the same way without those experiences. Learn from them, dont repeat them - and pay it forward, to the man at the red light before the gym this morning - thank you for smiling at me and waving hello - it made my day, and changed how I was feeling. I went on to have a conversation with someone in the gym locker room and I hope she passed on the kind human gesture to someone else. You never know the ripple effect you'll have one someone just by doing something so small.

What is one thing you can do tomorrow to be an example of kindness? If there was one thing you'd want more people to do and pass on what would it be? How do you feel when someone randomly does something for you that you didn't expect?